Taking a walk through history I uncovered some illuminating and grim aspects of being a lesbian and although the past is sketchy it is evident same-sex relationships were a thing in ancient times. In fact, the infamous Lesbos Island in Greece still stands as a landmark of women forming loving relationships with each other through the eyes of the poet Sappho whose erotic works spoke of the magical interplay between two women as lovers. You could say this artistic soul was also one of bravery as she voiced her heartfelt desires to a world that did not consider women free-thinking souls of intelligence. Sappho was a change-maker and her need to express the beauty of female-to-female love and sexuality has been a hallmark to all lesbians who understand the depth of feeling and desire felt when women are attracted to each other. There have been many souls that paved the way for the more open atmosphere many of us lesbians embrace in a modern but not so-lenient world where humanity makes choices about people of difference based on religion, culture, or fear. Often these opinions are handed down through generations of prejudice or deeply entrenched programming. If our father or mother told us that being gay was a sin and punishable by God imagine the internal damage this would create as a child deemed themself to be unlovable or a black mark on their family’s name. The parents may go as far as to say their child is mentally unwell and seek the help of either the church or a doctor to tame the beast of being gay.
‘My rainbow colors are perfect the way they are’
My first experience of resistance was when I wanted to join a church and was told I would need to see the pastor. This I did and once I revealed I was a lesbian the pastor told me I would need to make a change. This was the only way I could be part of this church and without asking what that change would entail I kindly let them know I was comfortable with who I was and wished them well. What I did not know was the concept of ‘conversion or reparative therapy.’ An archaic vision of God’s people and professionals who believed being gay could be driven out by different processes including drugs, and physical and psychological torture. My heart feels immense sorrow at the thought of anyone perhaps lesbian like myself being subjected to such cruelty and disrespect. We may be of gay origin but still ultimately human and worthy of acceptance and not a ‘target for compliance’ by those who cannot abide our difference and feel such a deep desire to eradicate our existence. I believe in a God of compassion and unconditional love for all their creations whether they be of a different faith, sexuality, or creed. I honor the light that lives within us all and our unique contribution to this planet we collectively call home. My heart has been forever open in a world that has elevated the distance between us as a human fellowship making connection a privilege instead of an easy interaction. The kind that comes from a place of knowing we are all in this life together with variances and vast incompatibilities.
‘One soul may deem a person’s religion as intolerable while another chooses the path of respecting the free will of another’s right to honor their God, their own way’
The same goes for sexuality and how a person may feel discomfort around the idea of same-sex relationships. It’s all a matter of perspective and a ton of planetary conditioning taken on board from those we see as influential. The concept of following the crowd is steeped in our psyche as it seems a road easier to travel with less hardship. So what does that mean for a woman like me who knew she was gay from a very early age? Simply put I kept it to myself but accepted I was attracted to women. I tried dating men and lived with one for a time but didn’t feel the vibe of emotion that soared in my heart when I imagined a relationship with another woman. I finally came out and it was a massive relief for now I was free to be my authentic self. That deeper knowing I am a woman who romantically loves women has never changed. If anything my sexuality has become a source of pride and I hold my head high as a dynamic divine feminine who steps out into the world sharing her light as an awakened femme. I have felt the look of disdain now and then when I openly share my love for being a lesbian but am reminded that in bygone times same-sex relationships were more accepted than most people know. Ancient Chinese rulers and nobility were openly bisexual and although often married to women had loving connections with other males. It was also a similar story in early Rome, Greece, and Japan. Female-female-only unions are scarcely recorded even though they clearly existed.
‘Shining a gay light of love’
This was due to the lowly placing of women in terms of societal, cultural, and family importance and the masculines holding the seat of power. Sadly much of the Information about homosexual relationships has been lost to antiquity with one major truth standing above the rest. In the era of the ancients, gay and bisexual relationships were commonplace and widely accepted. I often think the loudest voice gets the most attention and that has been evident throughout history regarding religions’ stand on being gay as a sin. I have been told I am a sinner and that was a strange moment when another person’s belief instantly denied God’s access. Instead, I consider myself emotively connected to the source no matter who I choose to love. I understand being gay is an opportunity to shine a light on the degree of bias in this world and as I openly share my love for who I am there will be those who shun the beauty of my free expression while others may celebrate the depth of my authenticity, The real test of staying true to oneself is to hold grace for others opinions knowing this world can have a fixed mentality if something or someone appears different. That is separate from what the masses try to indoctrinate as normal. In saying this our cosmic home is evolving and that is thanks to those who walked with their gay, lesbian, and transgender hearts on their sleeves calling for integration and change.
‘Because of their powerful intention, I walk the walk as a lesbian in my daily life shaking up the paradigms of long-held contrast’
In doing this I bring my vista as a gay female and woman of purpose. I never miss a beat in my soul journey as I awaken souls to the misconceptions of what a lesbian is supposed to look like and am often amazed by the storyline that sets us up to be demonized. It seems we are not alone as we share this distorted status with psychics, astrologers, tarot readers, and various people of magic. Gifted people are scorned for their divine talents. There are also the truth-tellers and those with an enlightened vision for our planet that is challenged. These are people of innate wisdom with a desire to bend conceptual rules in their area of expertise. It is a brave human who dares to speak of unique archetypes when as a species we are prone to reject the unfamiliar. The voices of change are not always popular and many have died for their pledge of forwarding motion. When you stand against what is considered the norm a tidal wave of flack is bound to wash over your vision of truth. It is the way of this world to halt the change-makers until their message is revered by those who see the validity of a contemporary approach to an old way of doing things. You see we tend to be suspicious of anyone selling an idea that is revolutionary in its potential. Change can be a dirty word for people who prefer rigidity and it is not until they are literally shaken out of their comfort zone the metamorphosis begins. The message is similar when it comes to sexuality and acceptance of people who prefer to mate with a mirrored image of their own gender.
‘Who told me that being gay isn’t good?’
This still raises eyebrows and causes some folk to take a stand of opposition or denial. As a gay female, I am often surprised how much attention is focused on the LGBT community when the continual destruction of the Amazon forest and the thousands of species annihilated in the name of human necessity are less newsworthy. As humans, we tend to prioritize what we deem as important based on what we know and that can be from what our parents told us or what we took on board from peers and people in high places. Sadly this is where prejudice is born. From the lips of a person who has an ideal inherited from generations before or current thinking about what is considered acceptable. The burning bias that separates people based on their sexuality is a chronic issue on Planet Earth as is the color of human skin and culture. So what is the answer? Shifting the narrative from division to connection will start a conversation where those who have been instilled with set ideas about gay people might consider their stance has been an initiation from other people’s ideals. After all, we are all earthly creatures wanting to make sense of ourselves and each other in a world of interpretation where religions have fortified the belief is wrong in the eyes of God and man. This leaves little room for followers of Godly regimes to do anything but comply with their faith and deny the validity of anything that does not fit with that belief. For example, men and women choose same-sex relationships over the conventional Adam and Eve partnership theme.
‘The problem is I exist. A gay female who has chosen to support her authentic path in the most loving, accepting way’
A journey of non-conformity but one of truth and soul sovereignty. My purpose is not to change the minds of the hardened but to encourage discussions of diversity and how we can find a way to share this planet as a unified race of elaborate differences. It is then the aura of the earth will be enriched with an accepting glow as humanity crosses the bridge of prejudice. In doing so we will find the sameness of each other within each other regardless of what country we are born our skin color, or our personal beliefs. Instead, there is a split in the human collective where people are forced into camps of ‘for or against.’ An ongoing debate as most folk have fairly fixed opinions about what they do and don’t like. In saying this it’s easy to assume that most points of belief are derived from people we look up to or respect. It can also arise from ancestral ideals and the need for a sense of belonging. We may indeed be developing a separatist mantra but deep down all humans desire to be part of a group, family, or community and it is within these frameworks the ‘birth of a bias’ can be created. A shadow of human discord often formed from the basement of the church, an institution born from God’s unconditional love.
‘Can you be gay and a child of God?’
My question is how did the puristic light of God become entrenched in a system of judgment when they designed the human from a place of infinite love? These are humans that may have spiritual gifts deemed evil as witnessed in medieval days when witches were brought to justice for their stance against churchly principles. This dark era of humanity was a time of power blatantly misused to incite hysteria and fear and a lesson to never let a system whether they be religious or otherwise in a position to cast its net of hate so violently. As a gay woman, I am reminded of how history has created elitist factions that in the name of God make decisions here on earth about who is worthy enough to get into heaven. What deeply concerns me about this misuse of power is the youth who understand they are sexually different and may be under the influence of people telling them who they are is wrong. I remember when I discovered I was a lesbian at a very young age and with no religious backdrop was able to work through what it was without the halo of gods disapproval. Imagine male kids who today discover they like boys instead of girls and are confused by their parent’s religious beliefs. The pressure can be on for both parties to conform as the church may consider their sexuality against God’s plan. It’s tough enough growing up in this world without the stress of trying to make sense of who you are in terms of being gay, lesbian, or the desire to be transgender. It could be time to loosen the grip on fixed attitudes understanding that being queer has been around and implemented for centuries and beyond.
‘As long as a wedge is driven between people who are different the prospect of unity on earth is diminished and near impossible’
I look at this earth and see division everywhere. It’s not just me being a lesbian but the guy who backs a different political party than his neighbor and the woman who can’t relate to her friend’s preferred religion. It’s all over the planet and piling up like mountains upon mountains. I am all about empowering same-sex love and cutting the chords of conformity so new generations can feel the ease created by those of us who understand what it is to be gay in a seemingly straight world. I know so many of my brothers and sisters struggle with the concept due to other people’s ideas of what the perfect partnership should look like. That being a man-and-woman union as opposed to a relationship between two men or women. I feel blessed at times to have escaped the burden of judgment as my parents left the religious decision to their children and this enabled me to be gay without shame or religious rebuff. I have an open heart and understanding that God’s love is not elitist or selective for we come from love and return to love regardless of our persona here on earth. The day when all people can look into the eyes of another without fear or hatred will be a celebration of diversity and choice. A system of peace and acceptance.