How does it feel to be a gay divine feminine in a world of contrasting beliefs?
If this is you, take a bow. You are not alone and are part of an enchanting collective of women who honor their bisexual or lesbian selves with love and respect. To walk a planet of bias and righteous indignation takes a soul brave enough to awaken others to the rigid ideals that dominate a world fixated on what is predictable. Being gay is a gateway to exceptional growth, although our world is flawed with bias, bullying, and indifference. In a darkening world, I find myself drawn to the call of the light, an esoteric ideal similar to religion but differing in its stance of soul safaris on Planet Earth. To say I am a soul is to understand the depth of the cosmos and the mysterious intellect that inspires soul growth and expansion. Life is short in the context of being human and the mystery of our arrival on Earth. Souls are fluid and ghostlike, while humans are flesh and blood, equipped with intelligence and a divine essence of light and dark. A mainstay in this universe of conceptual contrasts. The light sparkles as we travel through time on a mission of honorable importance. It may be as an earth angel here to rescue animals that felt the sting of human abuse or as an awakener of lost souls. The heart of humanity is broken, fragmented from the curse of life and ancestral wounding. The cycle of suffering holds the heart to ransom, causing blocks to love and frequencies that align with human happiness.
‘Our species’ scars are battered by patterns inherited from genetics and happenings that crushed us to the core.’
These are relationships mistaken for healthy alliances ending in heartache, trauma, and wounds needing to be cleansed, whether in a heterosexual or same-sex romance; the meaning is the same. Love is a dance through fields of emotion and psyche, a message from our guardian’s vision of love. We are receptors and sponges of what we see and feel growing up. If our family dynamic is abusive, we learn that love is a battlefield, or we detach if our parents seem emotionally unavailable. The early years for a gay or straight child set the stage for first loves that may be attracted to our defective sense of love because it seems so familiar. We believe love is beautiful, glamorous, and overwhelmingly enchanting, feeling lost when it flatlines, leaving us shattered with emotions we can’t make sense of. This is the nature of love in a world ill-equipped to handle a classic karmic break-up. It’s a crazy time for young gays, already facing intolerance when differences are not always embraced or celebrated. To add smoke to fire, gay love has mixed reviews when religion is adamant about Adam and Eve and quarrelsome about Eve and Eve. This dishonors my right to be gay and fall in love with a woman who honors her sexuality as a gay or bisexual woman.
‘What is missing from the heterosexual rhetoric is how it would feel for a gay woman not to be gay.’
Simply put, it is like being a fish out of water. You can barely breathe at the thought of trading in your gay ID for a more worldly-compliant boy-and-girl theme. I speak of this as it has been a plague on my life for decades as a target of masculine narcissism. Is it ego or a prideful, manly thing that lesbians are prime fodder for men to prove that we just haven’t met the right guy yet? While I ponder this archaic thinking, my heart feels the pang of hurt felt so often through an epic of intimidating attention from a male who could not think in their own heart the pain caused in their attempts to secure a lesbian as their romantic partner, forcibly. If you are also a gay female reading this and experiencing similar issues. I send my heartfelt empathy for my sisters of the lesbian and bisexual flock, honoring their path and truth of self. We are gay warriors in a sanctioned globe caught in the crossfire of triangulation. The deadly game of control is cloaked as ‘divide and conquer’ and backed up by separatism as the preferred way of living. It hasn’t helped that institutions of God have chosen to blaspheme gays as insignificant, although they are opening church doors a little at a time. My religion is the light, a sanctuary of unity and unconditional love, and here in the expansive frequencies of the divine, I take a seat in creation as a divine daughter and an ancient soul who loves to incarnate on earth, no matter the challenges to be met.
‘The heart of this feminine knows no limit and embraces her lesbian stance with dutiful pride.’
I am not for everyone on this planet while unapologetically sporting my brand of consciousness with love for others brave enough to follow their majestic gay heart. My stand in this world is to beam a powerhouse light on beautiful women who love other women in the most enchanting, romantic way. We are not meant for men, and we damn well know it. Our hearts are captivated by divine feminines who align with our same-sex attraction. Many of us are walking the talk of our grandeur as chic gay women with an attitude of gratitude. What is not to love about being openly gay and wanting humanity to ascend to a vibration of Christ’s consciousness? The most emotive awakening you will ever know, and guess what? You do not have to adhere to a heterosexual or religious style of being to have access to this conscious code of enlightenment. As a gay woman, I entered the realm of Christianity and then felt a free-spirited call to the light, where all souls are welcome. The gates of heaven do not restrict those who think the curse of humans deciding their value on earth. These are the voices of desecration and displeasure that many of us are amazingly authentic. We are the new humans, banishing the words of bias by breathing life into the art of sovereignty while harsh words rock the lives of those wanting to keep the status quo. As a confident lesbian who pulls no punches when it comes to speaking her truth, I see a world cloaked in illusion.
‘I am an explorer of wisdom lost in the archives of myth and banned writings such as ‘The Emerald Tablets,’ a historical account of dark and light denied by mainstream religion.’
For centuries, religion has been more concerned with disarming the credibility of ancient texts and those with gifts that see beyond the veil. Powerful psychics are deemed worshippers of idols, but open our minds to a universe of mystery and unexplored knowledge. The branding of gays as ungodly sets a precedent of suffering and solitude for those who feel rejected by the church and religious parents. Whispers of heresy cut like a knife through gays daring enough to be crusaders of the light. So, how do we navigate the discord of those who choose to segregate lesbians and bisexuals from human kindness and acceptance? The key to healing her broken heart from bias and ego-driven attitudes, we are anti-male, is self-love and honor for the feminine difference we are when targeted by insecure males who consider us a challenge to their manhood. This is my story and why I reincarnated to aid in healing the original mother and father wound perpetrated by centuries of feminine abuse and misuse. Healing through lesbian spirituality has been the ace card for my deliverance from the hurt of narcissism as I sourced self-love, self-honor, self-respect, self-loyalty, and admiration for the gay woman I am and the powerhouse divine feminine collective of Planet Earth.
‘I am the daughter of divine royal DNA.’
Whether you are religious, spiritual, or an atheist, the right to be gay is always yours. Healing the wounds of rejection brings peace to a divided world and the core of abused lesbians, who feel the wrath of their wounding. It’s not hard to see why gay women struggle with self-governance, as history holds a scorecard of compliant females in the hands of power-hungry males. A trip down memory lane takes us to the Roman Empire’s conquest days of territory and the Eve’s of Planet Earth, who carry the genetic scars of obedience and restraint into the current time as a motif of cause and effect. The divine feminine prowess of nurture, intuition, compassion, and love was dishonored, shutting down her essence of divine purity as the bearer of life and goddess wisdom. The feminine was a hidden mystery to the masculine, who did not have eyes to see her inner beauty and mystique as cultural ideals dictated her place in ancient societies and civilizations. Eons of feminine abuse set her up for a psychology of wounding and disbelief in her majestic self. That is, until now, as the feminine has been awakening to her cosmic queenship. She is indeed a force to be reckoned with and will no longer kneel at the feet of those who dishonor her worth. This is not a liberation stance but a recall to her nobility as a heterosexual, lesbian, or bisexual woman of impeccable worth. As we collectively heal the heartbreak of our ancient invisibility
‘We rise like the showstopper woman sharing her voice and intelligence with a world ready to hear the benevolence and beauty of our unique feminine dialect.’
We are taking Planet Earth by storm with a new vision of nurture as we repair the hurts of the past with ancestral healing and a deeper understanding of our psychology and the effects of being minimized. Modern women are fortifying their inner world with courage and confidence as diplomats of a divine feminine who knows she glows like a monarchial member of humanity, revered and respected for what she brings to the worldly table. It’s a new day as we take back our power and honor the supernatural spirit of our femininity as sassy, gorgeous women who bring light to every conversation. workplace and relationship. Her healed heart beats to the rhythm of love as she dances in the dimensions of her awakenings. Imagine the auric field of women sending cosmic ripples through inner realms of self-love and loyalty. Once, we were programmed to play it small, and aware we were set up to fail as amazing women who independently make choices that fit their desires, needs, and wants. The consummate feminine has healed her heart and deleted the text that led her to believe she was limited, not limitless. Letting go of an ancient inquisition that labelled women as intellectually inept has been blown out of the ballpark by her rising star in corporate and political circles while raising kids and blazing trails as a gal who inspires all women.
‘This alpha of the modern world is a role model and chic example of how we can heal the wounds of yesteryear by digging deep into the darker aspects of our intriguing human psyche.’
It is here that fear, trauma, and insecurities are buried under an avalanche of abandonment and abuse, keeping us stuck in victim programs that threaten to derail our peace and mental health. With such a heavy load, we discern in the dark without a flashlight, learning that not all people align with our sense of self. We meet folk who teach us more about the dark and our wildcard Lilith, to be seen and heard as the untamed feminine we might long to be. Some say Lilith is the dark side of Eve or perhaps the sensual sexuality of a woman in her free-spirited, empowered mode. In contrast to the frigidity of the feminine, a kickback to the expectations of the perfect wife or daughter as a pure vessel of virginity until the sanctity of marriage. Patterns of the past can deeply embed into the halls of our psyche, causing blocks in same-sex and heterosexual love. My brand of gay divine feminine, (aware and awesome), lights a match to the fire of confident gay women who have taken the time to heal the wounds of family and religious reactivity while becoming a voice for the softening of difference in a world dedicated to division.
‘Heal, dear feminines, from the ancient heartbreak. Take back your depth, nurture, and enchanting intuitive vibes. Your divine inheritance breathes love in a descending past of dominance.’
Author ~ Linda E Cole (The Divine Feminine)
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