Lesbian And Religion
‘As a gay female, I had always believed there was a God but felt societal resistance to who I am and my choices in love’
In this article, I share my journey of faith and how I awakened to a spirituality that made me feel free to be my lesbian-loving self. I know this is a dilemma for many gays who have a depth of love for higher consciousness or a god they long to engage with but feel excluded by religious beliefs.
‘God wasn’t mentioned much in our family home’
The fact that religion was not a feature in my early home life gave me the belief it was okay and actually pretty cool to be a lesbian. Like most of the children in my town, I went to Sunday school and when I was of age my parents told me I could choose whether to go to church and continue my study of religion. I didn’t need to think long and decided I did not want to even though later in life I re-chose this path. Most people in our neighborhood were Roman Catholic but my family being of English origin followed the Anglican faith. Historically it was Henry VIII who envisioned a church that was primarily English after a fallout with the Pope in the early 1500s. This infamous king of England desired to divorce ‘Catherine of Aragon’ as male heirs were not forthcoming but were refused as divorce was forbidden by the Roman Catholic church. What followed was a new church I was baptized in as a baby. I often wondered why my parents had such a liberal attitude toward us kids making our own choice until I discovered after my mother’s passing she had no religion and was an atheist. My mother’s stance on religion set a precedent in our home for independent thought and action. There was the typical English discipline but a wavering of deep conditionings that allowed us, kids, to freely form opinions about life and the world around us. I knew I was not like other children in the sense I looked at women in a different way than other female kids. In fact, it felt surprisingly natural considering I was the only lesbian I knew.
‘You can’t be gay ~ What will our friends say?’
This made me think about other women who may have grown up in a religious family where being a lesbian might be shunned. The imprinting would be shame and not wanting to offend her family. could be a priority. There may also be the intention of trying to date guys to see if it is a passing phase. The problem here is we make choices before we come to earth and one of them is our sexuality. The soul knows that choosing to be gay is likely to add exceptional growth even though the human experience may be met with resistance. The kind society places on the hearts of those who don’t fit in. These are the brave souls who come under the eye of scrutiny and can even be condemned for their right to choose who they desire to love. I for one am proud to be a part of this elite set who wear their lesbian light with pride and persistence in a world where love is in less supply to the popular stance of hate and bias. I personally struggled with the church scene and felt constantly like a hypocrite as I was aware the Anglican church was lenient to gays but still not convinced they were favored by God. There is however a softening in the arena of religion that has opened its church doors to gays although the belief system is still grounded in a male/female union. I may be a lesbian but not that different from anyone else. I have a fairly structured value system and choose to be kind and consciously compassionate to all people regardless of origin or religion.
‘Source Love Is The Religion Of Authenticity’
In the end, we are all on a magical mystery tour of the earth as souls imagined by an emotive composer of creation. So okay this may not be everyone s belief but it is mine compounded by awakening to a spirituality that made sense after years of churchly tuition. This was my eureka moment as I aligned with the feeling explorers must have had when they discovered new lands. For here was my missing link in a life of trying to understand why I was here and going through some harsh happenings that needed explanation. This of course was simple as I am an eternal soul with my eye on the nirvana prize and walking through minefields to get there. The dots connected and I felt part of something so holy and eternal that the tears brimmed in my eyes. This may not be for everyone but it sure worked for me as a few years on I have transformed with ease into a gay woman who understands the nature of soul lessons and how they expand your awareness and responsiveness. In this sacred space, there is no room for judgment toward choices in sexuality, color, or culture. As here only the warm glow of source love illuminates. An intuitive light that beds in your soul knowing you are immortal. Old souls like me have a deeper respect for the greater scheme of things and in my growing-up years felt an alliance with the unusual or mythical. We come to this planet with no memory of past endeavors but as a soul who has been to earth many times, I felt a restlessness that was not appeased until I woke up.
Love Is The Religion Of Authenticity
‘Are gays welcome in heaven?’
My new religion was freeing and as a lesbian felt no resistance from a universe enriched with unbiased love. I was now a soul in a human body walking the trail of an unknown destiny. I felt alive and aware I had formed a loving alliance with an ancient entity I knew to be a soul. The reunion was emotive and exalted resulting in flashbacks to past lives. This gave rise to philosophical thoughts about how religion ostriches people of magic, insight, and differing sexuality. I wondered is there a God that rejects souls they made with infinite, unconditional love? At this point, I offer earthly respect for everyone’s right to choose their own personal version of God while allowing myself as a gay female to question a higher consciousness that would cause me to be the ‘black sheep’ of a heavenly family. My quest here on earth is to promote kindness, unity, and the absolute right to be authentic. And if that is being a person who can connect with people that have passed over or a man who romantically loves other men I do not see a God of judgment ready to outcast their fractal offspring. I perceive a divine deity who gave humanity ‘free will” or the right to think of an earthly journey into reality. In saying this I appreciate god as a consciousness of love who devised a system of learning on a planet of an ethereal landscape so the soul could achieve any level of growth. In fact, going on my own experience of many years in an arena of control and suffering I achieved a greater sense of enlightenment.
‘My grand awakening’
To get there we have to go down in the trenches and experience the true grit of living in a 3D environment where not everyone is awake and some humans will show defiance to your ideas and choices. Why do we want to come here and endure hardship? It is so we will find through experience the measure of our soul as we get closer to god, the flagship for all-knowing. This is attained by reincarnating onto the earth plane through various lives as a human and some beliefs as any other living thing. The bottom line is ‘we come to learn.’ Once we get this the veil lifts on all conditions, and confusion so what we see is the magnitude of who we are and the alchemy of our existence. Payday comes in the form of awareness as fresh eyes glance at the world with a new perception. It is often that our tools of purpose rise to the surface and spark our passions as doors from the soul open. Waking up from a world where the language of religion was created from centuries of indoctrination. I suddenly felt validated as for many years I had sensed a higher power who loved all people as the souls they lovingly handcrafted. Stepping into this new paradigm of faith brought peace and elation for here I was awake in the middle of a universe alive with energies that supported my belief in creation. Suddenly being a lesbian seemed free of stigma and stereotyping. Instead, inclusion was real, and knowing my difference was a blessing and not a curse as defined by some religions.
‘Shifting lanes of religion’
I saw the light of all souls who come to earth. I saw our likeness and kinship to the source. I had let the light in and the warm glow of creational love. To say life changed is an understatement. New levels of awareness and compassion filled every void as the grandeur of love weaved its magical way into my heart. Everything I thought I knew slipped away as the conditioning betrayal of a lifetime showed its sleight of hand. Waking up reminds me of coming out as a lesbian. even though I had known it as a child it took a while to make who I was official. Life got in the way but I will never forget the powerful release when I let go of conforming and became the gay woman I truly am. Something shifted and today I understand it was a message in consciousness as I honored my authentic gay self. In fact, my pilgrimage is to support others on their path to soul identity and what is written in their destined path. Sadly in this world, we are living under a mushroom of illusion but when the fog lifts so does the right road to travel. I have known two versions of god in this life and the first was a puzzle I could not find all the pieces to fit. This was religion, a biblical vision of the one who fashioned humanity. Now I see the merit in reincarnation and the regeneration of the soul a divine fractal who makes a plan and comes to this 3D realm to garnish knowledge. It’s a purposeful journey that takes in the highs and lows of living in a world built on programmed thinking. The process is robotic as we meet our parents and begin a life of un-knowing. An adventure structured for soul enhancement.
‘Rise of the light warrior’
Many of us are born and then die never knowing the full story but the good news is we are now in a prophetic time of heavenly awakenings and re-connection to an everlasting source of purity and love. A religion of the soul is a dedication, to enlightenment. We do not take orders from this divine orchestrator. Instead, we align and integrate the heightened feeling of love and vibration inspired by the all, creator of everything. If this sounds like a glorious sense of fantasia then I believe it is real. Since my awakening, I have healed (much of the pain) of thirty years where my life was heavily controlled and even in the framework of this happening, I found multiple strengths and internal power. The evolution from a space of victim has been humbling and at the same time magnificent. I rose again and in that moment of reclamation felt the undeniable love of source. This is my story of finding my way home after I fell into the dark trap of a soul who was wounded enough to entrap me. With limited resources and support, I struggled to survive and thrive. My turning point was waking up and feeling the instant connection to a divinity I loved and admired. This lit the torch of reliance and paved the way forward. I was now a light warrior guided intuitively to set myself free.
My Spiritual Journey As A Lesbian
‘Reincarnation – the pathway to enlightenment’
You see Virgos are analytical and seek the higher answer every time. My revelation was breathtaking as the geometry of the universe highlighted the reasoning of ’cause and effect’ while unblinding me to a reality that was not entirely true. We walk with the blinkers on in a world that is heavily conditioned but the perfect fodder for a soul wanting to ‘raise the bar’ on their search for knowledge. Along the way we let our woundings defeat us and lose our way in relationships while forfeiting our passions and joy. I have found the secret to soul success is AWARENESS. That is the ability to see beyond what is presented and has been for so long on this planet. There is nothing quite like knowing there is an expansion we have access to within ourselves and this universe of grandeur and enchantment. With higher senses on full alert, the light seeps in and the curtain opens on a series of realms we never knew existed. For it’s not only a time of childlike wonder but a brand new vision of life on earth as a human and soul. We arrive from the universal realms or star systems. Yes many of us are star seeds who signed up to come and help in these ascension times. The divine plan is to wake up the humans to their godly origins and in doing so bring change to this blacked-out planet. Those who are conscious know their role is to support others as they open their eyes to a truth well hidden. As I write this I am reminded of a phrase from a popular religious song “My eyes have seen the glory of the coming of the lord.” (Battle Hymn Of The Republic) A phrase so in alignment with my awakening and re-connection to the originator, a god of all-purpose and infinite love. My personal belief in reincarnation as a vehicle for the soul to garnish information and grow has been a life game-changer and has seen me evolve in the most magnetically, wondrous way. We have choices when it comes to having faith in God and I highly recommend you seek the religion or spirituality that feels right. I found mine and continue to transform as a soul and human. In doing so I feel spiritually free to be my lesbian-loving self.
From the author: If you are looking for a spiritual community to join there are online collectives that allow you to feel a sense of community and belonging.
Author ~ Linda E Cole (The Divine Feminine)
